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*Update* I've recently started writing a blog that takes a look at mental illness and how to cope from a Christian perspective. Curious? Check it out: findinghopecatholic.wordpress.…

I'm not even sure what to say about this image. It's definitely out of the norm for me, both in drawing style and content. Over the last month and a half I've been battling a steadily deepening depression. This last week was especially hard and I needed to vent somehow. But it's not something that's easily described in words. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, but right now I'm still firmly stuck in the middle of that tunnel.

I've had more than one person ask me to describe what I'm going through. I honestly don't know how to describe depression to someone who has never experienced it for themselves. It might be a little different for everyone. Or it might be that people just have different ways of trying to explain it. I've heard it referred to as "the worlds largest vampire bat" or "like being numb, like a ton of cement sitting on my heart". My personal favorite description is it's like a black hole opens up inside you. You can't feel anything except pain, and you alternate between numbness and pain. I also find I'm exhausted almost constantly. So basically, depression sucks lol. And it's not something you can just shake off or snap out of. It's a chemical imbalance in your brain. So telling someone who's depressed to "get over it" is like telling a diabetic person to control their blood sugar through sheer force of will. It doesn't work.

In any case, I don't want to make a habit of posting depressing pictures. But I can't promise there wont be more. Drawing this was actually strangely therapeutic. I do have several fanarts on the go, but I haven't had the heart to work on them. Maybe once I'm feeling better.

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TheWhiteShark's avatar
i get this...i really do. that girl could easily be me